to bestfriend:
my my... aren't you high. tsktsk. stressed huh... ahah. u sound like me *winkwink*
and your first exam is this monday??? that is FAST babe. macam tau je im gona ~ahem~ u for not updating...:P sorry non-malays. dont mind me. this part is for her anyways. i also must JIA YOU!!! ahaha. hmph. i finally had the mood to study just now u knoww. hehe. fun ah. let's mugg mugg mugg! wheeee. and WHAT?! u saw someone fall down? wonder who that unlucky soul is... tsktsk. and of course, outing is a MUST.

i realise..im a very fortunate girl. have always been. to that someone i went out with just now, just bear with it okay? i know it's all crap, and there is practically nothing i can do to help with the situation but do know that im just a phone call away if you need me. SMILE! (:

Complications. Do tell me.
7:14 PM
hoot hoot!

i am super high today. erm not exactly today but i can say.. NOW at the point when im doing this post.
im in love with the song ONE LOVE by BLUE. Out of sudden. hehe so dnt ask me why.

so some updates on the school. EXAMS coming up!!! argh stress sey and the best part is that.. i have not start on my reveision yet. MUST JIAYOU!!
and the first paper im sitting for is this monday. WTH MONDAY!!! haiya. once exams are over.. time to concerntrate on... sth much more important. *i guess* hehee but then i dnt find it THAT IMPORTANT in the first place.

tas! after exams.. MUST go out OKIES?? erm maybe we make another besties outing?? and this time can we NOT make it to Sentosa? hahah kinda tired of there but then like gerek gitu. go beach with besties. eventhough i hate the beach but then.. try going with the people you love =)*yea rite* hehe

kk actually i plan that dis time im gonna post a super duper short post coz i think iv got nothing to post about actually and plan to just post anyway so as to keep the blog updated as well as.. so tas wont scold me for not updating hehe but then.. yea i can just crap out of the blue and this is what you get. CRAP from me. hehe
and try imagine.. seeing someone ROLLING down the stairs. HAHAHAHAHA xD
tas! SMILE!! =) hahahah

One love is all we need =)
4:41 PM
woot. Long John-ed with bestfriend just now. just. i am so full. and contented with the quality of the food. yummayy.
the crunchy shrimp..
salsa cheese.. ooohh...
and the combo 1 chicken is very crispyy...
yes, im trying to make u hungry. (:

k let's rewind. before that, was with Misrah(a.k.a. rara/Miz) and Aida. crapped like siao with them on the bus(and before that too). bf, u have to thank them. it's because of them that i didnt have my erm fierce face on. hee.

okay. since Miz doesnt read the blog, let's convince her. shall we? ;)
[this part of the post is dedicated to her. specially for u my friend, as promised]
let's see. when you're rara, you are tai tais' live deejay. a very good one. it's always lively when you're around :) woot. tai tais rock! hahaha. all the jokes we share.. every day is a day to look forward to.
k and then when i call u Miz, it's always when we have the crappiest of our crappingness. woot. hahaha. i love merepek-ing with u.
ps. dont frus k. i can tell u knoww. your face expression changes. hehe. and erm, kiter kene malaksanakan misi kiter!! sshhh... ;)

and remember even the most optimistic person in the world needs a time out sometimes.

oh yeah. here's something from Grey's Anatomy:
..As human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark, there may be fear.
But there is also hope.
:):) ok im done. super loong entry. for me anyway. love you readers/viewers!
7:21 PM
Peak hour.

do remind me to take the bus to tamp interchange during peak hours. so darn irritating. every single bus is packed. and even after walking two bus stops away, it does not make a difference. so.. back to my first sentence. i shall take 81 from tamp then. and i do love the journey home in 81 :):) cos when going to school, u can always take the earlier bus. but how are u supposed to do that when it's time to go home? it's not as if u can go home earlier. yea. i have learnt my lesson. right jojo? hahaha. must be clever like rara.

so tell me. how can i not be selfish at a time like this?



7:21 PM
23 JULY 2007. thats today..

in a month time.. i'll be sitting for my very 1st o again. AGAIN!
i wonder what will the topic be this time... well i was kinda happy about last years topic but then too bad. the grades are bad enough. haiz.

finally the ACCT test is over. end of CA2. coming up is my exams. haiz. ive got more than 4 examinable module sey. cheat my feelings. well i was told about that before.. just forget about it la. have the IEB written one too. and its scheduled... far far before my other tests. DIE. MATI. LOL.
my actualy exams starts on the 18 august. and by right ends on the 22 August but then by left.. LOL *im crapping* no such ting as by left lol
and the day after that... 23. the history is repeating itself. just that in another venue LOL

ps tas. tnx. haha nice eh? my camwhore... LOL biasa la. what do you call an expect ofthe cams for LOL i miss camwhoring with you gurl. next time we meet.. im so gonna drag you in for some camwhoring. MUST. bluek!
and i still dnt get it. where is the mature part that my fren say. LOL
so hows your studies going on??
just bring the red shirt when u plan to meet me okies? hehe
8:41 PM
yesss. cousin, i enjoyed the stay. hee. i covered 2.4km people, according to her *grins*
well it didn't totally backfire, aini and i DID study.. somehow. hahaha.

but now, im having muscle cramps. hoho. everywhere. exaggeration, maybe ;)

hmm. oh yeah. saturday was grandparent's 50th anniversary. had a gathering. and picture taking. jee. oh where oh where are the pictures? :)
fah uploaded some in her blog. go check it out. blerghh.
love the antiques. with our
eh dah, dah ada lampu merah(the red light is already on)
and then pak ngah comes running in before it goes 'CLICK'.
tok and nenek became the 'king and queen'. heart them. (tok sent me home you know. sweeet)
eating is also goooooood. currypuffs. yummay. chicken rice(darn HAP). cakes.
(:(:

ok now. need to finish up HAP and study SFP ahh.

oh bf, when was it u wanted your red shirt? :) nice. cam-whoring. in the previous entry. woot.


1:13 AM
CLASS PTN-DINNER TOGETHER!! STEAMBOAT YAW!!
SEXY baby! Lmao =)
Today is the night! Haha the night that ive been deciding since yesterday on what to wear. Btw gf, Ive decided to wear my yellow skirt with a mickey mouse shirt. Haha its black btw. So I matched them up. Well im good in matching the clothes you know right?? (hehe some perasaan there.) sorry uh. Was kind of high on latte. Drank it during the break to prevent e from falling asleep but then its activated NOW LOL
Damn great la. Haha ok. So you know what I wore. Then with earrings and my heels. Haha my normal outfit when I go out rite gal?? hehe and guess what?! One of my classmates commented that I looked matured. OMG. Mature=old ok. Grr YongMing im so gonna get you for that!! Well its damn bad la. So what you do expect?? See me go school the same way as I dress up when im going out?? OUH NO. NO WAY. For what dress up nice nice to school when the main purpose of sch is just to study and learn… and in other words, are you trying to tell me that Im immature?? Grr grr. Anyways haha no offence.
and this is the first time my classmates see me in skirt haha. cool eh =P what do you tink people?? hehe
That is what I wore today for the dinner. Excluding the heels coz im in my room. Thankx to khair la that I took this pic. =)

mature ke?? what do you tink gf??

This will be the first and the last time im going steamboat ALONE. Im o gonna need my parents for that-cooking part. Although the other time I went with ex-47 peeps to Seoul Garden.. I don’t do the cooking ok. Haha its they cook for me. I EAT. STRICTLY NO COOKING. TSK but I sure had such a great fun. And tanx to Joelin that she help me cook. Whether its properly cooked or not.. I dnt noe =X well desmond said it was like rubber LMAO. Rubber means the meat is not cooked. Hahahhahahahahah

Haha this world has more and mpre scandals each day eh?? Hehe new scandalings!! Yong ming and LiHong (my Doreamon fren ). Hahah woohoo. Sorry guys but its already written here hahahahah and more to come. My baby oso!! Kian wee is my baby. I dint know babies can have scandals too sey! Chey chey! Haha
And yong ming. Ive got a bad news. I cant snap the pic that u wan SOOO much wif ure scandal-LiHOng =X haha

some of the pics thats in my phone. frm th cam.. sorrie lazy to upload lol..


Thats JingYing, ShiLi and me.


Thats Jocelin and me. Ice cream time baby hehe


And thats me and step. ahah
12:32 AM
What it feels like for the whole class to go for LOA-Leave of Absence? Lol damn great. But for some reason. Its CIP so we do not have a choice. So we skip the whole day of lessons. Isn’t that great? Well wish if we can do that more often. YEA RIGHT! Dream of it lol
Hoho. Hot cip place for the day!! GEYLANG EAST HOME FOR THE AGED hoho.
Damn hot larh hehe. Starting of.. we have to think of cheers for each groups. Lol haha
My group’s cheer (all thanks to Pamela, jingying, weeteng, wenlong, and me!! And new members! Timothy and lihong.) :
OOO ipoh I tai tai heyah
OOO ipoh I tai tai heyah
OOO ipoh I tai tai heyah
OOO ipoh i kutikuti
OOO ipoh I kutikuti heyah.
Haha and it goes on with some actions =)
And the games time. We paly the pika ball. Erm I think that’s the name lol. Haha it sounds simple. But then its actually hard because the balls are all BOUNCY! TSK and its kinda tiring. Due to all the movements-catching the balls and moving around to play with them lol.
The whole thing was great. Full of fun, laugher and we-the whole class CAM WHORE woohoo.
Since im in the origami group, yea we do have origami session at the end if the whole thing lol. I ended up doing for them instead of teaching them. Well the reason is that I don’t know what they talking and they don’t know what im toking. So its either I do for them, or ask Chin Mei to tell them-and it must be..most of the time DIALECT or I just take the colour paper and fold for them haha
The worst part is that…we-the class, but I dint lol-have to clean the place WTH!!
I dint even do the house work at home lah lol. The guys have to clean the fans and lights.
This is what I do when the folks are karaoke-ing:


Its jocelin, stephanie and me. haha its my idea to camwhore btw!

Apart from msging and clapping and moving the maracas noisily while competing with kian yuan’s noisy baby toy lol!
And If u realize.. theres something on each of our shirt.. lol
This is my glossy green froggy!


And i named it FROGGY! LAME lol

Ps. For someone
Im sorrie. Its not that I don’t wan to meet, but then im too tired and Im not in the mood to go out with your besties. So I hope you understand. Next time okies? When I betul betul da siap for a real outing with you guys ok. Apologies to you and your besties.

And to you gf,
May I know if MY red shirt is still with you? The one you borrowed?? Isit? Isit?
And can you help me decide sth??
This fri, my class is gonna have an outing erm maybe to be specific.. DINNER. Eating steamboat at Marina. What should I wear??
I was thinking of wearing the black dress. You know which one right?? But is it like too awkward?? I mean its just a dinner. Steamboat dinner. But I don’t feel like wearing other things… HOW?? Kena tak I pakai that dress?? Or should I wear some other things?? What you tink??
9:31 PM
Yesterday was bliss. What were the chances of the three of us bumping into one another? same day. same bus. same time. (:

Oh. Discipline. I dont have it okay. Not for studying anyway. Never did.

Hmm. I'd love to, nana. Certain days okay. Now, things are getting a lil' complicated. HEE. Once i did, and it was GROOL. Bitching with you and jojo is fun. And i enjoy crapping with rahrah. woot.

And smiling is good. When you see a neighbour, smile. See someone you know, smile. Never mind the fierce face.
Smile. It makes the whole difference.

look at it in another's perspective. coz sometimes, we just have to know where we stand.
4:36 PM
DISCIPLINE?! Ouh god please la. Youre crapping. Who says youre always at the bottom? CRAP. If youre at the bottom, you wouldn’t have entered the 2nd class. Im in the third class. Do be mindful of that.
The discipline that use to be in me is fading away. Far far away. And will never come back. Never. Maybe I sound as if Im giving up. Well there’s always a chance to give up. Ive been in the bottom too.

Dont ever ask me why am I feeling the way I am now. it just came. Things. And some damn things that I don’t even want it to happen, is repeating again. Its got NOTHING to do with people (if youre reading this) BUT MYSELF. Wish if I have an explanation to it. An explanation to why its always me that has to suffer and go thru this Well Im searching for it myself.
9:56 PM
sat. netball. champion. (:(:
would have been better if i didn't keep falling(i think it was over my own feet HMMM). tsktsk.
and i must say, hanging out with certain people has it's influences...

and whoa girl. no no no..
i disagree 200%. no. No. NO.
I have never been at the top. Ok so maybe once. When i was in the bottom class, yeah.
but the thing is, YOU have discipline. I don't. ok dah.
3:03 PM
how I wish things can be so much better for me.
Lets go through this fucked up world till there is no more ending like nobody’s business. U rule. I rule.
So in about a month time, I’ll be sitting for my exams. Whether I can make it to the next semester successfully.. I’ll just leave it to the fate to decide. I don’t bother to aim anymore. Don’t bother to study hard coz I know. I know that no matter how hard I try, its hard for me to even be like how I am in the past, in the good way. The position where I am in last time. Miss being the top. Sick and tired of where I am now. So that’s for my poly life. Cant believe it that I have to write “argumentative essays” even in Poly?! What is this??
In about a month time too, I’ll be repeating what ive been doing in the past. something which I am still unsure why I had chosen to do it in the first place. Its confusing yet if I chose not to do, I will be at loss coz its something that I cant just let go as it will affect me in the future. All the best to me. And to you people, mugging soon for any tests.

ps gf,

and I think you should better know this.. You can do so much better than me..
2:39 PM
Well if ure wondering whats wrong.. erm about my nick the other day..its nothing really. Its just that I was listen to the song if youre not the one by Daniel bedingfield still remember that song?? And its memorises. Its all too fast and too hurtful somehow. Wish it can last longer but I cant stop it at all. Dnt you tink that it’s a little too fast for me now?? dnt you girlfriend?? Maybe I should forget abt all those things now..Dnt you tink I should? I dnt noe if it is even necessary to think of it in the 1st place tau..

I dnt wanna runaway but I cant take it, I dnt understand.

yey my test.. half of my madrasah tests for the 1st semester is over!!!hoho another two more to go. haiz
and still in a dilemma. should i buy the ***?? shld i??
ps. cant write in full la my dear tas.. nnt.. hehe ade la..
6:43 PM
I am a wave of emotions.
These two sides have been battling ever since that class ended.

On one hand, maybe she knows we were going to react this way and to put it in her terms, "rebel". But she has been the closest to us amongst them all, so she should know we are trying. Well she's definitely doing something. And we see it as backstabbing. Maybe it is a...last resort? Maybe. Though at this point of time, I don't think we need 1+1+1 more of them going against us.

And I do believe there is a reason behind everything. I was driven to explore person A's friendster and came upon a GL's friendster(whom also happens to be a friend of person A). Anyhow. I came across this:

It's not too late. It's Never too late.
4:36 PM
haiz im in the middle of the ITOS lesson. damn BORING or maybe its just me..not having enough sleep lol. im so getting my good night sleep tonight!! yes tonight.=)
well to keep myslef awake in this particular boring day.. im here updating a post and listen to some techno songs.. at least it helps me to stay awake rite?? rather then sitting there and fall asleep lol
i just realised that im in love wif alot of cascada songs argh!!! if u have new cascada songs... update me okies?! hehe *its open to everyone and anyone reading =)*

omg. im getting my accounting test later.. erm after my lunch. haiz haiz. shall update on it laterz.. bt one thing is that... i dnt noe if i can even make it for the nex sem... wif at least passing that module..

and i am so dead now. acct.how? thats the death of me =/ and still have abt 40 more mins before im free..
11:09 AM
Wat results u talking abt?? Haha my test results?? Haha well I got one already.. and its like last mon that I got it back… hmmm okok la I got B for that paper… haiz wish if im smarter…

Another point… wat is that, that makes you tink ive changed?? And for the better?? Meaning?? I need elaboration!! Expansion hahahha.

Well if you wanna noe wats life?? Haha it totally sux to the core!! SUX!!!
And bestfriend.. yes I agree we should have an outing together real soon. How soon?? Im not sure abt it either lol. Miss the fun that we used to have together in sec years sey. Its your fault la.. for not coming to SP haha bluek!
4:00 PM
It's such a windy night. Okay. Make that rainy. I cleaned my room just now. Quite fun. When you have the mood, everything's fun. Point is, i wasn't in the mood for sch stuff so i lazed the day away.

Cranky day today, somehow. And i shall sleep it off.
But before i do, one last note.
Bestfriend, we need to have an outing. A real outing. (:
You've changed, did you realise that? But for the better, im happy to say.
^winks^

And that is what I call Life.
11:28 PM
Eh ida. Sumpah ah tak kenal perempuan tu..

Semi-finals, here we come..
Fah, next time you frust, tell me k. Then I'll ask aiiesyah to payback and do whatever i can to help. (:(: Never mind. Next week, you said? ;)

Hmm. My.. I'm that pathetic. That's just about how much i can fill in about the competition. Just goes to show i didn't play much and nothing interesting happened to me. Except for that one game when i went after the ball and knocked down two opponents(at the same time) and didn't fall. They must have thought 'mnafdlqwh'. I wasn't playing dirty okay. It was only once and HMMM. Forget it.

Did i mention it became a cousins' outing? Sort of. Jee got called in at the last minute. She was the only available person.. (: Thanks kezillion, cousin. It was very last minute and at least we had sufficient players; 10 being the magic number.

&im in a dilemma.
1:26 AM
Ahh how could I be so damn careless?? I left my textbook in school and will have to wait till Monday then I can get the book back.. that’s if it is still there faithfully waiting for me sigh. Its saddening that I lost my book. Oh how I hate to be separated from my books!!!
Well finally we went out together.. me and tas. Its been a long time since we really went out haha. Actually the outing was kinda last minute plan just now haha during my lunch break tas msged me..

Today was supposed to be a long and draggy day in school but then my lecturer dint come so the whole class had free time from 830-1230 how great is that?? Well to think of greatness.. I’d rather be at home sleeping soundly and enjoying the comfort of my bed rather than resting my head on the hard table, stuffed my ears wif loud music (well that normal) and chatting too haha well must be wondering how can I chat and sleep at the same time.. well im not sure too haha but what I knew.. I was kinda frustrated due to the sound which irritate me while I wanna sleep haha
And hey stop it la k!! read minds!! As if!! Bleahs. And gurl.. its time to mug hard!! Haha study study study.. wann that guitar?? Lol *bribes*
Then we-me, tas went to tamp.. well tas need me to decide on the sport shoe for her… its like so wrong la in the first place haha. Me deciding for her sport shoe?? Lol well Im not in to sports shoe.. I tot she wans to buy flats or sth… why dint you tel me that ure buying sport shoes in the 1st place??? Coz sport shoes.. I dnt noe how to choose!! Bt then I noe u wan me to follow coz U TRUST MY FASHION TASTE muahaha some syiok sendiri eh haha

Nex tym when ure buying sports shoes.. dnt call me!!! If going shopping for clothes accessories ladies shoes haha call me lol

Ok enjoy for the netball thingy laterz. Take care. play well =)

I wan PSP!! grr
3:41 AM
HEE. I feel as though i've abandoned the blog, but no. (:

Ouh. Thanks syahida for the company just now. Sorry for...interrupting the peace. And to your friend, sorry for making you drink all that water. Thanks though (:(: I was kinda joking.. Next time I won't interrupt, rest assured. You don't have to say it, I can read your mind. WOOT ;)

Anyways. Tmr is the day. Netball comp. Hmm. I bought the shoes and I feel guilty(yes mama, i DO fel guilty spending money). I hope it's worth it though. Ouh. And my hormones are raging...

Ouh. My results are BAD. No exaggerating. That's old news by the way.

Here's a slow song that i like at the moment:


7:23 PM
I am so damn pissed today

9:01 PM
The DAY is finally here yey! !Friday was the last day of my MST lalala bt then when the results day come.. I know im gonna be SIAN!!! Hope that I wont do that badly in the tests… hmm acct… I dnt know whether I can get a B… bt I know that I can at least pass… is that gd enuf?? Hmmm well for me I tink yes… for such a beginner in acct. damn I miss maths and I mean REAL maths..
And tas!! Woohoo u passed ur maths. I love u!! hahaha u pass maths for me right right?? haha kidding. I bet that ure loving maths as much as I do now right?? Hahha
Hahaha ok im tired of all the muggings… and slept frm the ime I reached home and just woke up actually… =) finally its over…
Can I dnt wan the results day to come?? Hee
Coz I know I wnt be as happy as I am now… *cries*
Now its time to pray hard for the results… =(



So tas.. its u getting all excited for huh?? Haha well it’s a pretty normal day =) just watched movies erm Ocean’s 13 coz he dnt wanna watch transformers coz its not my type of movie hahaha despite telling him that I dnt mind… he still doesn’t wan bt kesian sey… haiz. Then we are just practically walking round in circles haha from one end of orchard to the other end haha well nothing much in plan that kinda of thing..
Out as did u noe that there’s this guy.. ok not exactly a guy.. bt a small kid.. and he plays the DRUM!!!! Argh how I wish if my mum allows me to play and take up drum lessons… its ok la I mean ‘for a small kid.. wadya expect’ hahah its still ok la.. just abit monotonous… but still I would give him credits =)
Ive resisted COOKIES today lalala *three claps for me* well u think I cant resist them huh?? *grins and winx* haha but still s COOKIE MONSTER muahahaha and he tried coffee bean for the very 1st time *CLAPS!!* err hope I dint really forced him to go there hee. But he agreed that CB is nice lorr hahah better than Starbucks?? hahah
What else that u wanna noe?? Haha nothing much la gurl =) ajak tak nak ikut bleuk! =S ouh so wat did u do the whole day??
Ouh ouh did ur is there some kind of taekwando going on sat?? hee or isit ur ninja shift days frm Sunday to sat?? hehe I tink im going blind ready haha… saw some white uniformed ppl doing some kind of martial arts.. cant differentiate between ninjas and teakwndo-ers hahah unless I go right behind them to see the name muahahahaha
12:29 AM